Gallery
My Mind Was Never Mine To Control
Black gritty paint boxed inside a razor-sharp white border, quarantining the chaos. Gold letters cut from cardstock embossed with ghosts like "Keep Calm" spell out a lie. The words MIND and CONTROL are scorched. I am the fire, the arsonist, and the firefighter simultaneously.
Starting Over
Contains real prescription medication (stopped prescriptions, not current).
Built on canvas layered with the ripped hospital gown from the night I went to the ER in a manic episode and checked myself out, terrified of commitment. Two bottles spill into each other. Peach burying white. Fear and shame made physical, wanting help and running from it at the same time.
Just Fucking Sleep
The title is the phrase yelled at me growing up, and the one I say to myself now when I cannot sleep. Deep purple, gold, and white in splattered and poured layers, with actual sleeping pills painted gold and silver set into the surface.
Take Me
Contains real prescription medication (olanzapine 10mg).
White olanzapine tablets glued in block letters spell TAKE ME across a mottled field of olive, mustard, and umber. A torn prescription label sits beside the ME. The drug commands itself. Internal resistance vs external command.
Sedated Galaxy
Contains real prescription medication (olanzapine, hydroxyzine, stopped prescriptions).
White specks read as stars, but they are the meds, buried under black and gloss, still visible, still there. That is what sedation felt like. Not gone, just sealed over. A galaxy you cannot reach because something heavy is sitting on top of it.